Wednesday, May 27, 2009

my to buy list:

air purifier
bathing suit
some work clothes
good bookcase
little desk

i also need to get ruka all fixed up and get that phone on lock, but thatll take a little saving/commitment

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

thank you steven chu,

for you are a very wise man. to paraphrase:

"The Nobel laureate in physics called for a "new revolution" in energy generation to cut greenhouse gas emissions.

Making roads and roofs a paler colour could have the equivalent effect of taking every car in the world off the road for 11 years, Chu said.

It was a geo-engineering scheme that was "completely benign" and would keep buildings cooler and reduce energy use from air conditioning, as well as reflecting sunlight back away from the Earth.

For people who found white hard on the eye, scientists had also developed 'cool colours' which looked to the human eye like normal ones, but reflect heat like pale colours even if they are darker shades.

And painting cars in cool or light colours could deliver considerable savings on energy use for air conditioning units, he said.

Speaking at the start of a symposium on climate change hosted by the Prince of Wales and attended by more than 20 Nobel laureates, Chu said fresh thinking was required to cut the amount of carbon created by power generation."

i completely agree that these steps, as well as many other simple steps, should be effective immediately. it is imperative that we exercise our ability to help the earth. after all, where else are we going to live if this place goes bad?

Friday, May 22, 2009

dear kath and kim,

"Kath & Kim," based on the Australian series of the same name, followed the fortysomething divorcée Kathy Day (played by "SNL" alum Molly Shannon), who thought she was finally about to have some time to herself to search for love. But when her narcissistic daughter, Kim (portrayed by Selma Blair of "Hellboy" fame), separated from her husband, she convinced her mom to let her move into Kath's tacky suburban Florida home. The house rules had changed, however, as Kath refused to cater to her bratty daughter's every whim like the good old days. There were plenty of fake nails, rhinestones, and big hair as these two over-the-top ladies took the suburbs by storm.

NBC ended up airing only 17 episodes (just short of a full 22-episode season) of "Kath & Kim" before giving it the boot. Though the Australian version of the show became quite a hit in Australia and both Shannon and Blair were spot-on as the wacky mother-daughter duo, the American adaptation was apparently lost in translation for U.S. audiences as many critics considered it unfunny and practically unwatchable -- something comedies, um, should not be.

i would like to say that it was a good run and you have been unfairly canceled. i watched you religiously and am devastated that you will not return to my thursday line-up next year. i can still remember every potentially gay, awesomely clothed, super bitchy, hilariously fabulous moment . . .

yahoo news claims critics found the show unfunny and unwatchable. i would like to respond to that with a "what the hell were you watching cuz kath and kim was ridiculously awesome"

you will be missed [tear]

oh shamwow guy,

did you just say im going to love your nuts around 36 seconds? oh and then say we're going to make america skinny again one slap at a time around 1:14?

oh you are silly with your miracle products and potentially inappropriate lines. and you know, i wouldnt upset willie mays if i were you . . .

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

oh cranberries,

your juice is so sweet
in berry form it is you i eat

so delicious
and nutritious

i drink cup after cup
cuz its never enough
keeping my body so clean
and me frequenting the latrine

theres some freestyling for you.
an ode to cranberries <3

Sunday, May 17, 2009

for the love of cake,

this woman is a genius . . . if/when i get married, margaret braun will be designing my wedding cake. there is no doubt in my mind that i am paying whatever amount she asks for one of her cakes. these things are unbelievable and im not saying i will even come close to matching her skill, but i would love to try my luck at her style of designing cakes

Thursday, May 14, 2009

sheer joy

i just watched this weeks episode of Fashion Show, which is ridiculous compared to Project Runway, and the woman who made the see-through blazer/moto jacket completely reminded me of how much i love sheer clothing. theres a whole upscale, chic, sexy, daring appeal to it. im totally going to plan making a few pieces for this summer.

the jacket:

and ugh so cute:

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


i do like my fair skin but man oh man have i always wanted to be jasmin for halloween. i finally have a guy to be my aladdin and i would be all white

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


so ive hit a snag in my future. i will be going to college in august but i dont know what i want my major to be. i want my masters in fine arts no matter what i end up doing, but im not sure what i want to tackle first. id like something challenging but i dont know if something that relies completely on talent is too challenging. i mean im having my schooling paid for so its no big thing to dabble but i am truly aspiring to be at berkeley in a few years and i doubt theyll appreciate a transfer applicant who just dabbled around.

hopefully i figure it out soon.

mi amor,

because i know you read my blog when you can.

i want you to know i love you. and im going to love you through it all cuz baby youre my everything. youre everything ive ever wanted. i want this forever. i swear i can spend whatever on it. youre the best ive ever had . . .

Monday, May 11, 2009

silly celebs

money does not buy happiness.
nor does it buy great outfits, apparently

Thursday, May 7, 2009


when everything is white and so lightly touched by the sun in the mornings i cant help but be completely at peace. knowing that everything in my part of the world is waking up and starting the day with me is to inspiring. sunrises really help me start a good day.

fourteen months today too actually. very good day
i love you so much baby

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

oh and i officially started my workout tonight. im planning to do it every night unless i am completely not able to. its a bit mediocre but im sticking to it so whateva

it consists of :
20 second plank
5 push ups and side planks
20 plank glute kick backs
20 glute hip lifts
20 squats
20 lunges
50 calf raisers
and various yoga poses

and i want to start jogging every now and then, if not regularly.

also, ill be weighing and photographing myself every wednesday in the same outfit to see if there is improvement. im pretty jazzed about it


oh how i miss high school and tennis and good awesome times when everyone thought mariana and i were lesbians and/or twin sisters . . . it was just so awesome.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

i havent slept and i have to be up at 9. i tried to sleep but it didnt work very well. i ended up letting the past five years play through my head. i tried to sleep... now im very bothered and not really confused but kind of shocked. mostly shocked. and im worried too.

but forget that... the sun just rose


sometimes i just need to vent. talk out loud so it makes sense, you know? and i guess i will now because i just dont know about some thnigs. plus no one is online. no one is every really online when i need to talk.

a lot of general people say to go with your gut feeling on things or follow your heart or go with first instincts about everything concerning decision-making and living life. i happen to have exhausted those options and found that they all suck. my gut feeling consists of sick, twisted up, nervous, doubting feelings that should mostly be ignored. my heart aches a lot and when i come to a point requiring a decision my heart is usually still weighing out the odds. my first instinct always leads me to trust and forgive and deny and overlook literally everything. ergo i just go with whatever comes out of my mouth. now youd think that what comes out of my mouth during important times wouldnt be that bad since i think a lot and hardly ever want to take back a statement, but that is never the case in conversations that involve bad feelings.

every time i have to talk about things that make me feel bad i end up not making my point very well, losing my train of thought all together, and somehow apologizing for my actions. its ridiculous that i can start a conversation with good means to be upset and end apologizing as if i was wrong all along. i know im a pretty emotionally driven person, but my feelings never drive me to be crazy or illogical or anything of that nature. i am always right [even just a little] whenever i make a point. i have reasons and facts and im just right.

i guess my problem is with myself because i make peace before addressing my interests and feelings. i always feel shorthanded about well, everything. i do give a lot of time and energy when i want to do something right. that is never a bad thing though, and i would never take any of that back. i love being a good person, and i do not expect i deserve anything in return of my being a good person. i just feel like i dont get anything back though. like its more give than take all the time.

also, i keep thinking about how a good amount of things are simple to do. small, simple, nice things are so easy to do that its a shame people dont do them. its almost funny [and a bit depressing] how not-far out of the way you have to go . . . and isnt it all the little things in life that make everything nicer/more enjoyable anyways? nothing time consuming of course. just little notes or gestures or words or anything to bring happiness into the day is so much more appreciated than you could possibly imagine. i mean, if they make you feel that great then why not return the favor?

and, on another note, i think ive figured out the issue of jealousy. not like its so complicated in the first place, but for talking aloud's sake. being jealous of someone or actions is really common in relationships and it always leads to arguments and trust issues and even break up and whatever but no one realizes how easy it is to overcome the problem. people get jealous of other people giving and getting attention from their partner right? and it happens because whether it seems like it or not someone doesnt feel comfortable with the amount of attention theyre being given. [i understand some cases are different than others depending on levels of insecurities and whatnot, but if youre going to be with someone like that in the first place youre well aware of their extra needs] obviously your partner giving attention to someone else is going to spark bad feelings because it isnt understood why they give attention to others instead of you. its like youre with me and im choosing to overlook everyone else to make you happy so i should be treated special to a certain non-crazy degree beyond being given the title of 'yours'. yeah, it sucks and yeah, it happens and frankly i dont know how to get over it if nothing in the scenario changes. and a lot of the time the scenario doesnt change and things do slowly get worse. and actually, most of the time the one who makes jealous, so to speak, does not care at all. and moreover, that is straight bull.

***and to be clear im not including the part where if jealousy is really a problem you should treat it as such and probably just dump the person because its obviously not worth it. and also some people are just crazy.

so, i guess to conclude, i should probably stick to my guns more regardless of the potentially not great outcome or get over myself, and getting jealous is not anyones fault but the dumb, insensitive, half-ass partner that should get a taste of their own medicine one day. and yes, if your partner has ever told you they were jealous or felt overlooked you can take that half-ass part as an insult because you dont deserve them at all and need to overcompensate for your mis-steps right now before they come to their senses and dump your lame ass.

so there. //sigh

Monday, May 4, 2009


im a lingerie fiend -__-

Saturday, May 2, 2009

so, oscar and i are once again proving we ARE fashion by criticizing celebrities and we stumbled onto something truly amazing. and what kind of blogger would i be if i didnt immediately post about this extremely controversial celebrity news?? it appears that the ever famous crackhead, Courtney Love, has had her heroin taken away and has morphed into also now-sober Steven Adler, former drummer of Guns and Roses.

Wow Courtney, WOW. At least youre not on crack.
Oh wait . . .

Friday, May 1, 2009

oh banksy,

you want to see my favorites? well, ok

daily inspiration:

gorgeous? i think so.