andiii says:

so i should be asleep already, but my mind is racing with thoughts. im really fighting my tired eyes looking at the screen at this time of night/morning. i want to go to the gym or paint on a canvas or be half asleep enjoying a road trip or with my amazing bf tickling him to sleep


but im here. and i have none of that and i want to dream about it but i never do. id like to have it my way for once. completely my way anyways . . .

i dont want to be alone tonight-- any night. im so tired of being tired.